Aim for the moon... Reach for the stars...

2007-04-11T10:40:00.000-07:00

I'm not really Zee..

HAHA.. :p

Okay anyway, let me update you guys about what has happened since the last time he blogged..
- We got back together (duh!) and his pyscho ex has stopped bugging us.. :P Hehe..
- He bought a car.. So now we no longer complain about commuting.. But now we complain about spending for the gas.. We fight about which way to go.. We dunno where else to go because we've been everywhere already.. And he complains a lot about the car getting dirty. :P
- He's graduated last April 22 and now he's gonna be in Med School.. :D
- He FINALLY moved to Manila.. So now we live on the same street.. :P
- He's still underweight. But still very handsome.. :D

I love you babe.. :D

So the sem ends...

2006-03-16T07:22:00.000-08:00

Sit back and relax...

We'll its been a really long and hard 6 months. My thesis took up most of my time. At least now i feel like i'm a real college student. Now that my proposal is finally over i've got more time on my hands.

Planning to post some pics up... but im too lazy to do it now.

Thanks for fixing up my blog Honey. The new color looks cool.

2006-02-23T00:40:00.000-08:00

GREEN!

I dont know much about html codes.. Sorry..
=p

I LOVE YOU!!!

Heppy B-day Honey

2006-01-31T07:38:00.000-08:00

Hey you're 20...

So whats it like? The big 2 - 0? Looks like teenhood just flew out of the window, but dont worry, your still twenteen to us :) Its too bad i cant be there with u... you just had to be born on an exam week :(

well anyway just wanted to say love u and i cant wait till the next time i see u....

Happy birthday from me and everyone else here in dasma...

Take care

Waiting for my New Year...

2006-01-01T03:09:00.000-08:00

The Pilgrimage...

Nothing to eat, 1 Heineken, 3 Millers, 1 Glass of Red wine and 2 Kamekazis! Man that hit me hard! Spent hours on the dance floor making a complete ass of myself, but who cares right? Still something was missing... or... more like someone's missing. Even though last night was a blast and i slept on the grass (the only way to spend new year), waking up with the mother of all headaches... its wasnt what it could have been if Honey was here.

So, no "Happy New Year" greetings for me... not until she gets back anyway.

The night was still great though. It started out slow though at Absinth, but who wants to be at Greenbelt for the countdown when Roxas was the place to be. We made it there just in time to watch the big ones go off.

Oh BTW we being Kiki, Vanesa, Mario, Karla and the Buhtanese crew.

Check it out...

And after that... we chilled at Embassy...

We had a cool time... and Lemy is cool to kick it with on the dance floor... hehe

Still at the end of the day, Honey is on my mind. Wish you could've been here...

Happy new year peeps!

Life, Death and Boredom...

2005-12-29T05:47:00.000-08:00

"Crack"...

Thats the sound she heard. Two bodies drop to the floor. Lifeless. Shes scared. Cant sleep... keeps hearing that sound over and over in her head. "Crack"... She closes her eyes hoping to wake up from a nightmare. The picture plays in hear head... Its so clear, like a movie playing at the theatre and she has front row seats.

Its not a nightmare...

They wrap up the bodies and stuff them into the car trunk. I can only imagine...
They drive for what seems like hours. The road is dark and lifeless, just like the bodies. Their conscience doesnt bother them... its been a while since they last heard that voice in their heads. The car stops. "Click"... the trunk pops open. They carry the bodies away from the car. Not a word to each other.
Freedom. Thats what they want. Fear. Thats what they feel...
They can taste their own sweat dripping from their foreheads. Salty...

Something or someone's up ahead... They're hearts starts pounding. Its about to explode out of their chests.
"What have we done?" That faint whisper in the back of their minds.
"They deserved it!" Thats what they keep telling themselves.
It moves. The grass rustles... something really is there...
They drop the bodies. One of them pulls out a knife.
They can see it now. Its stares at them for a second and then runs away.
"Just a stray." He says.
Relief. That wonderful feeling. Blissful. But its not over, they still have work to do.
The dirt stains their clothes as the shovel scoops up another mound. Its cold out there. They dont mind. Five more minutes and its all over.
It goes by like five seconds.
They drop the bodies. One grave, two bodies. Smart idea...
Job's over. Well done.

"Lets get out of here", one says.

"They were theives!"
"Street people!"
"How dare they steal from us! We're hard working people! We have families to feed!"
"Nobody'll miss them."
"They were only theives... nobody'll miss them..."
Words of comfort.
Are they justified? ... who knows...

The ride home doesnt take that long. Still, not a word to each other.

She's in the corner now. Silent tears stream down her face. Silence. Its the only thing she hears.
"Crack"... She trembles... The door swings open. They're home.
One of them grabs her. His grip is strong but his words betray his weakness.
"Not a word to anyone! clear?", one says.
She nods. Its crystal clear.

Silence.

A few days later, she tells me.

Merry Christmas!

2005-12-25T05:23:00.000-08:00

So wheres the spirit of Christmas?

After 4 weeks of complete !@#$%^&*! its all good now. To make a long story short Honey and i got back together. But now shes in Kuwait. Man it seems like only yesterday i was there spending Christmas with my mom, but now in stuck here chewing on my boxers out of total boredom! Everyone's out with family doing something having a good time. But im still here.

I hope Kiki and Vanesa have a great time in Boracay and Felson survives his trip to the province. If it wasnt for my second family i'd probably go shoot myself.

So i hope everyone has a Merry Christmas... and by that i dont mean limiting yourself to a present box. Im talking about the season of giving instead of taking. the joy of spending a good time with others. Honey gave me the best Christmas gift of all and even though shes not here right now i just wanna say thanks and I LOVE YOU.

Have a Merry Christmas peeps...

Online Flaming

2005-11-14T04:01:00.000-08:00

And the retards come out of hiding...

So this is what happens when i leave this unchecked for a few weeks. Well first of all its a free world and anyone is welcome to check out my blog and post a note on the tag board... But some little shitheads should know better. If you're reading this blog now then you should know that the only one thats pathetic here is YOU! Grow a fucking spine and at least post your name so we know who you are.

It doesnt matter if Honey and i arent together, we're still good friends, in fact we're better than good friends... So, unless your parents were drunk when they brought you up SHUT THE FUCK UP! you have no idea what you're saying and unless you know whats really going on or you're in some way involved you dont have any business posting anything on the T-board. MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!

Lastly, this is my blog and i can post pictures of monkeys having sex if i wanted to and if you dont like it then you can stick your finger up your ass and twirl... COZ I REALLY DONT GIVE A SHIT!

Happy Eid!

2005-11-03T16:56:00.000-08:00

Oh and by the way...

Goodbye for now...

2005-11-03T16:13:00.000-08:00

Back to the Philippines...

Well, sem break is almost over and its about time that i went back to the Philippines. This had to be one of the shortest vacations i've ever had. I guess thats the life of a person studying on one side of the world and residing on the other. I didnt even get the chance to take any good pics while i was here.

So, what have i learned in my time here?
Well, for one thing my parents really are insane... and they're also breaking their backs to give me a good future. So i guess they have every right to be insane. God Bless them.

The start of the 2nd semester...

I actually cant wait for classes to start. I've been sitting around doing nothing, so the thought of going to class really apeals to me right now. And so does the thought of another smoke... hehe.
One thing is for sure, i have to do a lot better this time to make up for the last sem. Time management... i really have to master the art of time management.

And lately...

Lately, i've been felling kinda out of it. I dont really care much about chatting online with the people i know. Everyone seems to have changed in some way. No one stays genuine, nobody is real anymore. I've actually tried to make new friends here but there aren't many people i can relate with where i live. These last 10 or 12 days were supposed to be a chance for me to rest and relax, some time to get my shit back together, especially after going through one of the worst semesters in my college life and after all the things i've had to put up with and fix. But it seems more problems have followed me all the way here.
I know about all the shit people have been saying about Shan, Honey and i. I've heard all the versions and i know the truth. Some fuckers just wont be content until im dead and burried. These little faggots lack the balls to come up to me and start shit face to face, so they go behind my back and talk shit. They try to twist situations and fuck up my life when it really isnt any of their business. But i can deal with all that, fuck i've been dealing with that all semester. What i cant deal with is when the people i'm fighting for, the people i care about, start looking at me like i did something wrong, when they know the truth themselves. Then all this fighting isnt worth shit.

Fuck... it kinda makes me wonder and doubt everything. It kinda reminds me about what happened between Gail and i. End up fighting for something that has no faith in you, something that isnt even there in the first place, and you end up loosing everything.
Man, i am just too fucking tired of fighting the whole fucking world by myself and i dont wanna loose everything again. I need a vaction! So for now im just gonna sit back, put my feet up and flip out my middle finger to all you worthless little spineless shiznits! I'm not gonna bleed for other people's wounds anymore. I just dont give a flying fuck...

Man i really need a smoke...

Snow Fall...

2005-10-29T12:35:00.000-07:00

A new experience...

I know its no big deal to most people, but i never cared about most people anyway. Today is October 29, 2005 and its the first day of snow here in Massachusetts and also the first day i experience snow. Man thats really cool... hehe.
I started making me think about the last sem and how it was the last time i was have classes with HUB33. Those guys are what made college life in La Salle great. Since i'll be having classes with my regular section i might as well shoot myself in the face! (Yeah... its that bad!) I guess the end of one experience makes room for a new one.

Anyways here are some pics of the good days...

Hanging out with Tere and Marianne after lab.

Tere is the girl with the stick on her head ( i tied that on... hehe) and Marianne is the girl wearing red, shes a wannabe princess. They're both really cool and have a great sense of humor.

Teresa is simply the coolest girl in DLSU-D or Human biology at least... She was the first person to talk to me when i joined their class and she never was intimidated by me being an "english speaker". (She also thought i was Aladin for some time...)

Chester and Larms...
Chester isnt just my classmate but he also does the vocals for our band. He's got a bit of a problem with the ladies but hes still a really cool guy.
Larmie is smart and she'll kick your ass at b-ball. thats coz shes on the varsity team. She also draws kick ass ambigrams and shes a Dan Brown Fan.

And now the moment you've been waiting for...

Thats right.... SNOW!!!!! Right in front of my place.

...and oh yeah... thats me in the snow...

The other side of the world

2005-10-26T12:02:00.000-07:00

One long flight...

19 hours of flying, 3 stop overs including Taipei, Anchorage and New York, one illegal booking and a night in the big apple, and worst of all no smokes, but i finally made it. The mind is stronger than the arm! Whatever... im here in small but freezing town of Massachusets called natick. Man there are more cows and sheep than people here. But the food is amazing... Beans! never tasted anything like Boston Beans! My parents are doing ok and fixed up the apartment really well. Well, they say its only a transition but its cool and comfy.

Oh yeah, i forgot to mention that i got delayed in New York JFK, for a night. Stupid... real stupid... word of advice... Dont ever fly China Air!

I spend most of the time online since there isnt much to do. I didnt travel half way around the world to see the sights of america and milk my wallet dry going shopping. I just came here to get my green card and so my 6 months leave wouldnt expire. So, right now im just content with good food and DSL.

But man, my dad got a new sweet ride

The new Chevrolet HHR...

we'll im bored and i have nothing else to write about... But if insanity kicks in, i'll post something new.

2005-10-13T06:44:00.000-07:00

Problems, problems, problems...

When does it ever end? Or at least... when do i get a break? If its not one thing its another. I thought everything was ok. So i just close my eyes for a couple of hours and the shit hits the fan! I wake up in another world, one where the shit falls down from the sky like rain.

I shouldnt even be writing anything inpublic but i dont give a fuck... She made it more than public. So right now i'm just trying to get away... passing the time.

Man... i've said it before and i'll say it again... i cant wait to get out of this toilet!

Where does the time go?

2005-10-11T07:41:00.000-07:00

Say good bye to the 1st sem...

Its over and done... exams were a real bitch... and finally im not broke anymore. Hey Honey, when are we gonna hang out already??? there a lot we have to catch up on...

This semester was a real bitch... i know i could have done better... but turns out this was one of the worst semesters i've ever had... never had so many "A's" on the record sheet and its not a grade... I might be turning into a karl! Shit... Lets all fail biology.... TWICE!! and shift to tourism!

Yeah that was mean... but i dont really give a shit anymore...

One the other side of the world...

My parents are doing ok... to all my real friends that grew up with me and care. I'll be going back to the States on the 19th (hopefully). Cant wait... i get to see my parents again. I've been kinda worried about them especially since both of them have blockages in they're hearts. Man, i almost broke down when i heard that. I've never been more worried and happy for them at the same time. They're happy and making a better life for themselves and still breaking their backs to put me through college. I owe them everything. God Bless them...

Well anyway, i know how it goes... all you little shiz nits out there that want stuff from the states, drop me a line and let me know... and remember...

I'LL THINK ABOUT IT!!! HAHA!!!

Later...

Back with a BANG!

2005-07-27T00:06:00.000-07:00

Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

Man what a trip... and im not just talking about going to the States. Well where do i start? Everything has changed... people, attitudes, situations... everything! Those who are terrified by changed are terrified of the reality of life. But thats a whole other story.

The Red, White and Blue...

Yeah thats right... been there and done that! It wasnt exactly what i was expecting but man... the cities are huge. And i thought i was a city guy... LA and NYC makes me look like i grew up in some backwater farm. Cant wait to go back there in October.

The Shit Hits the Fan...

And now they know i smoke. Well, they were sure to find out sooner or later, cant hide anything from parents. They're like the freakin' government in 1984. "Big Brother is watching you".
Now i really have to make a good effort to quit the habbit before things get even hotter. I really hate it when they force me to do something i dont wanna do. Why the hell cant they just let me be?
I have one stick and they treat me like i'm a damn heroine addict.

More to Come?...

Now that im tryingthis whole new thing called "time management" *gasp* i'll try to come online and update this blog as much as i can. But anyway who gives a damn? Who reads this shit anyway?

As Time Slows Down

2005-03-25T00:46:00.000-08:00

Watching time pass by...

... is the most boring thing a person could be stuck doing! Its Holy week and everything everywhere is closed. I never noticed this last year, maybe its coz last year i wasnt such a damn loner and i had friends i could hang out with. Oh well, shit happens.

My computer is busted (again). Fuck! its been less than two weeks since i last repaired it. All the malls are closed so watching a movie isnt an option. No place to go and no one to hang out with. So im stuck here in an internet cafe writing the most boring entry in my blog and bitching like a little girl just to pass the time by.

D-Day...

Monday is the day... the day i find out how well i did last semester. Thats rights its class card distribution day. Right now i wish it was tomorrow. Its wierd but i'll take any reason just to get out and do somthing.

BORED!

BORED!

Faith

2005-03-01T07:42:00.000-08:00

Faith...

Whether most people like to admit it or not, they've got it. Everyone, regardless of culture, race or religion, believes in something greater than himself. The only difference is how much you make it a part of your life.
Months ago i could say that my whole world revolved around my faith. I live, eat and breathe because of it and for it. But every once and a while, call it fate or devine interference, your faith gets put to the test. It happens to everyone and it can happen at anytime. I lost my faith for a while. I started living only for the moment, going nowhere fast... no direction, no motivation to do something good, to be better than what i am. All my life i've wanted to be free, to have independence to have my freedom. But now i realized that i was just becoming more of a prisoner of myself.

Now im sure He exists, i know He is there watching, listening, protecting and guiding me. But whats more important than that is, i believe it. I believe in Him.

So much has happened in my life that i cant even begin to explain and some things are better left unsaid. But I know that once you neglect Him, He'll find a way to bring you back down to earth and remind you that he is still there and that He still believes in you. So dont ever turn your back on Him because He would never do that to you.

I just wish i was smart and brave enough to learn that a long time ago.

Hate...

Everyone's felt it, and some people are content by just hating for the rest of their lives. But there are a few things they dont realize. One thing is that its like a cancer, once you start hating it becomes a part of you and dominates your mind and your feelings. You'll find yourself hating everything and everyone around you for no reason at all. Everything in the world becomes black or white. But the world wasnt created with just two colors. Theres more to life than just plain cold bitterness. Closed eyes could never see whats really there and thats what hate does it closes your eyes, your mind and your heart.

But the most important thing is that hate is never a feeling that comes alone. Somewhere beneath it is something better. It could be denial, guilt, fear, doubt or even love. Its up to you to find the courage to figure out what it is and to do something about it.

I've let go of my hate and of everything that binds me to myself. And i'm not gonna say something like "the world is a much better place" most of the time it is exactly what it seems to be, messed up! But now its a lot easier to deal with it.

Shallow water...

2005-02-24T23:59:00.000-08:00

Its been a while...

...since i last posted something on my blog. I've lost interest in a lot of things. I guess thats coz i found out i was wrong about a lot of things. What else can i say? I know, i've realized that i've changed, but into what? And i do i find myself again. There's no doublt that the past has affected me and maybe the damage is permanent, but i dont have to bring someone else down with me. If i fall, then i dont want anyone to catch me and get hurt breaking me fall.

This is my life with my problems
...my demons that i will face.
...my fear that i have to overcome.
...my doubt that has to change.
and i wont hurt the one i care about anymore with inconsistency.
With a cold heart of stone, i'll sacrifice whatever i have to just to do the right thing.

All i can say is... Im sorry Honey.

ITS OVER!

2005-02-07T05:09:00.000-08:00

Finally...

The midterms are history and i found out i didnt do so bad. Yeah, i know i could've done better, or is that just my mom talking. Well whatever! Like is said its over... well, almost. I've still got one final exam tomorrow to do and im finally in the clear. Then i can talk to my advisor about shifting course to Human biology. Thankfully my grades are qualified for that and who knows i might even make dean's lister if i push myself to the brink.

7 Months and still going strong...

Yeah i know 7 months may not be that much for most couple that have lasted years. But believe me when i say we've been through more than ordinary couples could go through in 7 years! I kid you NOT! The best part is im still totally in love with her and sure there are a few bumps in the road but hey, nothing was meant to be perfect in this world.

So i just wanna say, Honey love you so much and always take care.

Its MINE!

Well, i didnt really have the plan to get it but opportunites are taken not handed out. Im talking about the Nokia 6230. "For all the lives you lead" hell yeah! this baby should keep me satisfied for a real long time.

Exam Week

2005-01-29T04:00:00.000-08:00

School Stress...

The past week was a real bitch. Nothing but stress and more stress. Not only do i have to worry about school work, now i've got to worry about the ISA. Things are really hectic and they're not gonna get any better until the exams are over. Its a good thing i've only got 3 exams to take then i can take a well deserved break.

Cultural ROCK!

2005-01-23T04:59:00.000-08:00

Culture Shock...

Its been a while since i last posted something on my blog. La Sallian week is over and that mean i can take it easy for now. When i think about it, i only have one think to say. WE ROCKED! The show was great. Naturally there were a few rough edges but all mishaps aside, the show was smooth. It was definelty better than last year's show.

We decided to give the show a new theme this year and we came up with "Culture Shock... the ISA experience". There were many talented students. Our band "Miekashen" played the opening number. Thanks alot to Yousuf and Aiman, not only were we able to play we sounded good too. Orignally, our lead guitarist backed out and our drummer followed. Thankfully, Yousuf was there to save the day. We ended up playing "Plush" from StoneTemple Pilots and "Soul Searching" from Urbandub. HUB23 was there to watch... thanks for watching. But the most popular attraction had to have been Jay and company. They performed a hip-hop beatbox number. It was really good and it made the crow go wild. Yousuf's band, "Helga" played too, as usualy they kicked ass. They're one of the most popular bands in De La Salle - Dasma, almost everyone knows them.

SSDD...

Just like the saying goes... SSDD... Its back to the same old shit, just a different day. Theres nothing much to do anymore. After class im stuck at in my dorm doing absolutely nothing. The boredom of life! I need to get out or do something new! My CD collection needs an update and my hunger for excitement needs satisfying. hehe...
But i guess that'll all just have to wait until after the midterms. I found out that i did pretty good during the prelims and i dont wanna mess that up. Finally, after years of trying my parents are pleased. So, no more screw ups. I need this, not just for my parents but for myself.

New Beginnings

2005-01-16T09:38:00.000-08:00

Sometimes we fall...

When things get tough and your past catches up with you, when everything around you seems so fake, when the world seems like its full of shit... we all lose faith at some point in our life. The people who really care about you seem so distant, like a memory fading away. The thoughts of joy and happiness are nothing more than a crumpled piece of paper with the ink smugged and the edges torn. Life might seem so empty and we all might think that the only thing left to do is to give up and move on, changed by our own morbid desires.

Well i was torn by the past and i tried to move on with my life. But Somehow, the past always has a way of biting u back in the ass. So i gave up. Its a good thing that she was still there holding on to that thin thread of faith she had in us. I've learned that if you tired the present sick of the thought of the future and longing for the way it was in the beginning, then just make a new beginning for yourself. It might sound retarded but its true. Today isnt the past, theres no need to relive it. After all the past may not be in our hands but the future is.

So Honey, thanks for having faith and holding on. I wont ever let go again.
Love you...

Freedom

2004-12-18T04:31:00.000-08:00

At Last...

Exams are over... Shool's out... and the holidays are in!
I only had three exams and im pretty sure i passed all of them. Physics was a real hard one coz... well i already explained why.
But... i still have 2 exams in lab when i school starts again. I hope i dont screw that up.

New Friends...

I went to a Christmas party in Las Pinas after the exams. HUB23 are really cool when u get to know them. They're not like all the other science classes, BORING! These guys are fun to hang out with and they know how to have a good time. The best thing about them is that they dont give me a hard time or make things wierd coz im a foreigner. They're also a really close group and theres lot of dramma when one of them is leaving for good.
I hope i get to be in their section when i shift course.

Bummer...

I was really excited about playing on the 16th but our guitarist, that little cunt, backed out and we had to take a rain check. It was the last show of the year and we couldnt make it. SHIT!

Well theres still next year and there's still La Sallian Days and we WILL play with or with out him. After all we can always get a new guitarist.

Goodbye Philippines...

Well, its winter in Kuwait and thats where i'll be spending my break. Cool weather, hot showers, great food and seeing my parents again is the onlything thats good about that place. Otherwise, its boring, and the people are the equivalent of dog shit in fancy clothes... with a few exceptions. Like i said before, i'll be meeting Honey's parents there. We'll probably be go out all together at some point i've i brought i video camera, i could probably film "Meet the Parents - Part 3". I hope it doesnt get too akward, but i know everything is gonna be ok, after all Honey's gonna be there.

All play and all Work!

2004-12-10T06:38:00.000-08:00

Prelims...

Exam week is just around the corner. I've only got three exams to take but i'm still kinda worried about it. Especially physics. I know i fucked up my last long test... i knew i should have gone to class even if i was sick. Now i have no idea what i'm gonna do to make up for it. The only good thing about exam week is that it wont last long. This semester i only got stuck with 6 classes thats 18 units and they're all majors. Half of them are lab classes so the exams will be given after the break. The lecture classes are tough, but i think i can make it.

The Show Must Go On...

Thursday. 4:00pm. Lake Park. DLSU-D. Be there.
I got hooked up with a new band. Our first practice is tomorrow. Its cool but i'm not really into the kinda rock they like. They're more into hard "pinoy" music and im into hard rock, classic rock, grunge, and alternative. They listen to Urban Dub, Bamboo, and so on. I listen to Metallica, Oasis, Incubus, Nirvana, Rage and the like. Two different sides of the same world, but rock is still rock! Its kinda short notice but when you're a new band looking to get noticed, anything will do. We were informed about the X-mas party on the 16th and we still havent practiced. I dont really know the song they wanna play but i'll do my best to keep up with them. We're playing a song by a local band Urban Dub, Sould Searching. I've heard it and its good but the chord progressions are different from what im used to and i still dont get the rythm of the song. We've got 5 days before the show and exams in between. This is gonna be tough, but no one said everything is easy ;)

Going Back Home...

I just got my ticket last Wednesday. Thanks Honey for all the help, for the flowers and for everything else you did for me.
I'll be flying with Honey on the 20th back to Kuwait for the break. Cant wait to experience winter there again. Nothing to do but rest and relax... and meet Honey's parents again (help!)
Oh well, she knows i love her and i'd do anything for her. This winter should be a real blast. Something to remember.

Swept away!

2004-12-03T06:07:00.000-08:00

Buried Alive...

A killer typhoon just hit the Philippines. All classes were cancelled yesterday and today because of a killer typhoon that hit the Philippines a few days ago. A few places have been totally wiped out. So far 600 people died, and the numbers are increasing. Rescue teams and salvagers are still digging up dead bodies. Most people were buried alive. Manila and Cavite werent affected that much by the typhoon but most roads in Manila are completely flooded. If only the people of this country would stop polluting the damn place we wouldnt have to worry about floods! Now they're having trouble delivering food to the people standed because all the roads are flodded. The main areas affected were Quezon, Pampanga and Nueva Ecija. Filipinos create their own hell hole. I guess you could say this is mother nature's way of getting back.

I was out yesterday, and i got stuck outside. There were no buses, FXs, or jeeps. The only form of public transport were the cabs. So they ripped everyone off yesterday. Well, it was either that or stay stranded at Alabang. I made it back home soaking wet and my umbrella was completely useless, it even gave me more trouble... should've just left the damn thing at home!

Learn to Fly...

Im leaving for Kuwait again on the 20th of December. This time i wont be flying alone, i'll be going with Honey. We're booked on the same flight. Finally some company when i travel, now the fight wont be so damn boring anymore. One thing freaks me out though... meeting her parents with mine at the airport when we arrive at Kuwait. Im not scared its just that it could get really awkward, especially with my mom. She's a skeptic and stressed. Anything could set her off. She's also a really dry person, no sense of humor, i can understand why, but thats another story and not one that should be told on a public blog. I remember the first time i met her mom and dad, that was the most awkward experience of my life. Her dad was ok though, he was the real ice breaker. If it werent for him we'd probably just be standing and staring at each other. I wonder how im gonna handle it this time.

Anyway...

Schools out for the weekend and the prelims will be starting soon. I just have three lecture exams to prepare for so i guess its ok.

Rock and Roll...

Maybe... just maybe... i might be able to play in a new band. some of my class mates actually have a band but they need a bass player and someone who can get them gigs.... Well what'd y'know, i just happen to be a bass player and now that im VP of ISA i can get gigs at any ISA program.

SO! Rock aint dead... it's just been taking a break ;)

A new look... A BLUE look!

2004-11-22T06:24:00.000-08:00

Blue! Blue! Blue! and some cool Guitars too :)

The new template looks great. I've got Honey to thank for that. Love her so much. Thanks a lot Honey!

Today...

I talked to Yousuf about lots of stuff. He is writting his thesis which makes me wanna graduate already! I found out that Applied Bio students can't write anything related to health so im shifting course next semester to Human Bio. Maybe i can get a regular class and its gonna be easier for me to get into med school.

We also talked a lot about our friends, and how things turn from good to bad. It reminded me about how i was 6 months ago, before i got together with Honey, when all that shit with Gail was going on. I guess its true, life is like a wheel, one minute you're up having the time of your life, next thing u know your down in shit! But not to worry coz you'll be back up in no time.

My Point...

Well, i dont really have one. hehe... I guess when you find something worth holding on to then dont let go, enjoy it and cherish it for as long as it might last or better yet MAKE IT LAST! Our future lies in our hands and in our minds. We make the choices that make our future. And if you've ever been hurt or down, then just let it go coz today isnt the past, theres no need to re-live it.

Back!

2004-11-21T04:43:00.000-08:00

Behind...
Yeah i know i'm really behind. Something was wrong with my blog and i couldnt log in. So lets see, whats happened in all this time.

Well...
I got back from Kuwait. It was a short 2 weeks but time flies by when you're really busy. I was there fixing my requirements for the immigration to the States. I got all the requirements, took all the meds i had to take and i passed the interview! My parents were really tense and stressed about the immigration. My mom is desperate to go, she already has a job waiting for her there, but my dad, well thats another story. I'll be going to the states for sure but not anytime soon, i still need to finish college and i might still take my proper med here in UMC.

Classes started about 2 weeks back. Im taking all my classes with one section this time. At least i only have to make sure they get my name right once.

I also got my grades. Not too bad, but i missed dean's lister by 0.25 pts in Ecology lecture. Damn! I'll get it this semester for sure, nothing's gonna hold me back!

Honey was really worried that i might leave her and go to the states, but we talked and sorted things out. To make a long story short, everything is ok now.

Lately...
I've been kinda sick. Blame it on the weather, its raining in the morning, sunny in the afternoon and cold at night. The weather must be retarded.

I taked to Honey yesterday about a lot of things. I guess i really got her thinking. She's smart, determined and tough i know she'll figure things out. And she always has me to turn to for help.

Leavin' on a jet plane

2004-10-15T08:34:00.000-07:00

Well...

At last! Sem break! nothing but rest and relaxation, but im really gonna miss Honey. 2 weeks without making her smile or holding her or giving her a kiss, man thats gonna be tough. But i know we'll see each other when i get back... thats if the world doesnt end before then.

And...

Its ramadan! The best time of the year. Its kinda hard to explain but i always loved this part of the year, not coz of the presents or the big feasts or the money, it just makes me feel better. I know that if everything works out for this one month then im good for the rest of the year. Lots of friends i know or other people i've met in Phil. never take ramadan seriously anymore. Thats coz they're all worthless hypocrites! and deserve to burn in HELL!!!! Ok, im getting ahead of myself. But if anything, this month always changes the way i look at life and the things around me. Maybe its the way i was brought up, but one thing is for sure i always feel better during this month.

In other news...

I was at the mall today doing some last minute shopping, you know getting all the presents and shit that i'll be bringing with me to Kuwait, and i passed by a CD shop. The counter girls were continuously trying to flirt around with me, asking me if i had a girlfriend or if i was married. I couldnt stop laughing at how desperate they made themselves look. All because i told them i was from the middle east. I guess they knew theres big money there and they must have thought i was a rich kid. Well im certainly not poor but im not rich either. And even if i was... man thats still pathetic! Anyway i told them im happily taken! HAHA! Felt good saying that.

Aim for the moon and reach the stars - A prayer for a little Angel

2004-10-05T08:01:00.000-07:00

Everyday when i wake up,
Everynight before i sleep,
and all the time in between, you'll be on my mind and in my heart.

I'm so sorry,
for being selfish, when i should be selfless...
for being scared, when i should be brave...
for being a coward, when i should be strong...

I cant live with what i've done and i cant live without doing it.
I couldnt give more than what i have and even that could never be enough.

So i hope that one day you can forgive me for something i promised i'd never do...
for something i thought i could never do.

You deserve better...
You deserve more...
So go fly with the angels and smile with God, for you will never know pain, hurt or guilt like i do.

And everyday and everynight this prayer is for you... my Angel
Where ever you are, aim for the moon and reach the stars.

Consequences

2004-10-02T08:53:00.000-07:00

Lost in thought...

What do i do?
How do i live?
Who do i talk to?
How do i solve this?
Am i ready to sacrifice everything?

No one to turn to?
While confessions not yet stated, new sins are contemplated.
But new sins cant fix old ones.

Whats the right thing to do?
How do i do it?
Who can help me?

GOD please help me...

Back and kickin

2004-09-27T05:45:00.000-07:00

Finally...

Just got my cash today. First thing i did was get one big ass T-bone steak, man that felt good! Since i dont owe anyone anything anymore i wont be loosing any money this money and i might be leaving for Kuwait at the end of the month or the begining of next month, so i'll have plenty of money in the bank haha!

Anywayz...

Gonna meet Honey tomorrow, its been like a week since we last met. We live far apart so we cant see each other anytime we want to, a luxury that other couples get to have. But its ok, its better then not seeing her at all, and everytime we do meet we always have a great time. Tomorrow we're gonna go to the advanced screening of Resident Evil: Apocalypse. Cant wait, i know she hates me for always freaking her out early, right before the scary part, but i cant help it its so much fun and who else does she grab but me? hehe i know, im evil...

Well...

Thats about it i guess. I cant wait for tomorrow (how many times have i said that alreay) Its a good thing that i only have two classes tomorrow so i dont have any assignments to submit.

Fucking Bigots!

2004-09-24T07:10:00.000-07:00

Today...

Well like i said i went to SM with some friends to celebrate one of my classmate's birthday. We were supposed to watch Borne Supremecy but i convinced them to watch Mind Hunters. Honey already saw mind Hunters so i wanted to watch Borne Supremecy with her... hehehe... am i selfish or what... the movie was cool. Kinda made me feel like i wanted to be in that kinda work. All in all the day was ok i've got a hundred bucks left to last me a couple of days till i get my allowance... hope i make it.

Some Bastards...

Everytime i check out Honey's blog i always hear about some worthless bigot that tries to make a pass at her. I dunno why but people in the Philippines, guys and girls, are fucked up, shallow and fake. Why can't u fuckers just leave us alone?! Its not that im jealous or any shit like that its just that i've been trying not to say anything till now but everytime i hear about the guy next door or the guy on the phone i wanna fucking smash his head against the wall and make him see his own heart pump the last few drops of his blood! I know, i know... im one sick twisted fucker, but what can i say, she knows im not the jealous type its just that i love her so much and if anything tries to come between us... DIE!

Well anyway...

I better get back to finishing tomorrow's script for class.
To Honey: u know i love u more than anything and i miss u real bad. I cant wait to see u again so i can make sure everything is ok and so i can make u smile again.

To all u other fuckers: PISS OFF! KEEP YOUR DICK IN YOUR PANTS AND MY GIRL'S FACE OUTTA YOUR HEAD!

Ahhh...

2004-09-23T19:56:00.000-07:00

Damn...
I have to do my blog over again... lost a lot of time and space. Oh well, at least this is a fresh start. To today has been really boring, theres nothing to do... i guess thats coz im broke again, but its ok this time its for a good reason.

Anyway...
I'm sitting in the internet cafe here in SM. Its one of my classmates birthday so she said she would treat everyone to a movie and lunch. Well at least theres something to do, otherwise i'd be stuck in my dorm doind absolutely nothing. The movie starts at 11:30 so we're just wasting time.

Cant wait to see Honey again. I hope everything is ok with her. I've been kinda worried about her, coz of our situations, but everything is gonna get better soon. its just a matter of a few days before i get my allowance and everything will be ok.
Till then i hope she's doing fine.